2025
This life is a wasteland
Withered by every damn mistake
Can't you tell me why
I'm stuck in a world that hates me?
I'm trying and I'm trying again
To fight these tides of misery
Yet, the distant shores
Never seem to save my soul
This heart is forsaken
Torn by every defeat
Dark as the nightfall
It devours every spark of light
At this point, I just won't do anything
These paralyzing rules of life
Make me question my whole identity
Doubt, gatekeeper of zeal
Apathy, abductor of desire
Hate, creator of demise
I'm manifesting my own sorrow
I'm drowning myself
In bitterness and despair
Can't you tell me how
I can get out of this misery?
Is this who I am?
A shallow voice without any passion
I'm losing my way again
To hope and deliverance
I run away from the person I'll be
To hide from the letdown
I run away from an old enemy
The one I met in the hell inside of me
Is this god? Is this fate, or is this destiny?
Or maybe, this hardship is just a part of me?
Doubt, gatekeeper of zeal
Apathy, abductor of desire
Hate, creator of demise
I'm manifesting my own sorrow
The rain soaks the ground and the pain soaks my mind
I run away from myself
As I fall to the ground, I start to pray
I stare at my face and I look in the eye
Of this world of mine
This reflection of my stormy soul
Doubt, gatekeeper of zeal
Apathy, abductor of desire
Hate, creator of demise
I'm manifesting my own sorrow